So nice to finally slow down after such a busy day but the tears come and the sleeplessness. My heart is breaking for my family and for my nephew David. So Many emotions. Sadness for what my family is having to endure. Gratitude for having David in our family. Regret for living so far away and having to miss special days like graduations, birthdays, weddings, and just making memories. Blessed to have such a wonderful family. Struggling to understand why my little nephew has to go through this pain and this trial. Amazed at how brave and strong he has been through so many years of battling with cancer. This will be the hardest trip I'm gonna have to take. I imagine David embracing his Grandma Sanchez. I imagine him being pain free and I imagine him being able to serve a mission on the other side of the veil. I love you David, you are my hero. You have taught me so much through your actions and your example. I want to be a better person and to focus more on the things of eternity. Families can be forever and I know that we will be together again. I want to say don't forget us but I know you won't. We will never forget you and you will leave a huge whole in our family that will never be filled. You have set the bar very high for all the other cousins. I want you to know how special you are. Your dedication to your family. Your sense of humor and always wanting to make others laugh. Your quick wit and even when you lost your temper and got so angry that you had to go for long walks you could never cover up that huge tender heart. You are handsome, funny, kind and very loyal. I admire how obedient you are to your parents. I know that I don't know you the way I would have wanted because of the distance that separates us but I know the things that matter the most in life and those things are what you have. I know that you go to prepare a mansion for our family you are pioneering into the other side of the veil. Never lose your faith, never lose your hope. Stand like a rock to the truth. They say that it will be harder to learn and grow in the spirit world but I don't believe that. If you know what is true and you have faith then I believe you will be able to continue to grow and learn and you will be able to understand the mysteries of God better. So don't stop growing, continue to learn the gospel and you will make a difference there and here. The place where you go to is only a little veil away and that veil can be very thin at times. I know you will be our guardian angel. And when any of us are struggling and in the midst of our trials you will be there for us. My dear nephew I have a testimony that God lives. I hope that even through your significant trials you have been able to see the Lord's hand in all of this. I pray that in these last moments of your life you will be blessed to see mighty miracles. Not in the way that others would want but in God's own way. Reach out to your guardian angels who are waiting to lift and sustain you. I don't know who my guardian angels were during my times of trial a few years ago but I know without a doubt that they were there. They lifted me, I felt them like I feel the wind or the way you feel the sunshine on your face. Don't be afraid, don't be scared. Everything will be ok. Your mom and dad and brother and sister and your wife will all be ok. I love you.
